Diwali - wish it was only full of lights and not noise .

13 going on 30 is what describes me now , but am so appalled that what i understood at age 13 is yet to make sense to so many people around me , the decision to have a Festival of lights without the noise and air pollution that comes with firecrackers .
When will people really grow up and teach the generations to come that the beauty of the this festival is best enjoyed as time spent with loved ones , savouring yummy sweets , preening in new clothes , welcoming goddess Laxmi into our homes and lives and lighting lamps and diyas and not burning money in the form of lamxi bombs or tadaphodi!

I on my part have done my bit of having an eco freindly diwali but my contribution is just a drop in the ocean , we need all the people around to really get this - STOP POLLUTING .
or if thats so difficult a point to make then why not just force it down the throats of people - have a law banning the sale and public use of fircrackers , just have one big public display of fireworks in an open ground , telecast on every possible channel and leave it at that ?!

When will the people of this country ever learn this ???

Metamorphosis

its actually like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly , i am actually sprouting wings and no it has nothing to do with me getting a new car (actually hubby getting a new car)

its this feeling of definite chemical reactions inside of me which i know are going to change everything in my life forever and oh so drastically !

I mean I have this kind of feeling that I have been living in someone else' s shoes and need to break out , u know just go get that star shining high up in the sky .

Suddenly nothing seems unattainable , well almost , but honestly, recession or not I want to do what I want to do .

I know I have always , always been headstrong but now its like My dreams have gripped me and I am all set to explore .

More than th fear of the unknown which is definitely there , there is an unmistakable presence of "yes i am so dying to do so " feeling and I am unable t contain it within.

I feel as if I would just die or my head would burst if I dont do what I have been planning , thinking , contemplating , wishing , secretly thinking , dreaming of for allllll these years !

It's Time and how !

stuck in a rut

ever felt like your stuck in a rut, one foot in quicksand? you know the feeling? same ol same ol each day ...nothing new ....

some how how much ever i try i feel i keep coming back to square one .....well the worlds a sphere after all isnt it???

so many times i feel as all this is a dream and I will just wake up and smile that all of the unpleasant things never really happened?


wish life came with a clt alt del button......

but then if it was so simple we would never learn to appreciate the new and forget the old ....
never learn to love the new and understand that what we were trying to hold onto was nothing but a mere dream ...like grains of sand that the passing wind has taken away never to come back.......

god knows why but i so need to get out of this rut , break free .......explore new shores ......pack my bags and discover a new me ..................


when i say when,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,